Betul Ke Cik Panda Sexy?

Yeah. Tajuk topik yang bisa menyebabkan muntah hijau. But bear with me till the end and see if you still wanted to vomit at the end of the post. 

Being sexy is subjective. Different people have their different perception of what being sexy means. For me, being sexy is not about the clothes you wear. It's more about your attitude, your confidence and how you carry yourself. 

Someone who is confident in who she is will exude sexiness whatever she wear because she is comfortable in her own skin and with who she is. 

Someone with a perfect figure, barring her cleavage and other bits and pieces would not look sexy if she is insecure with herself. 

Disini tiada tujuan untuk memuji diri tapi orang selalu cakap saya sexy. 

Orang cakap, bukan saya cakap ahh.

Most guys i came across said that. 

Some are quite polite, some are downright honest and said things like 

"Have anyone told you that just by looking at you, you turn them on?" or  "The first time i saw you, i wanted to sleep with you". 

Used to think its a compliment but then, guys get turn on by almost anything that's moving.

Before you say something like 

"Memang lah, tengok la mana tempat ko jumpa dorang tu." 

or "Memang la, sebab ko selalu pakai seksi-seksi."

Let me tell you. Some of these guys are people i know from church or other places where i usually dressed appropriately. 

Before you say "Untong la cantik/seksi/menarik perhatian. Semua orang tengok. Semua orang suka." think about this, it's uncomfortable when people stare at you. 

It's not something very flattering because sometimes i feel like i'm an object. A sex object. 

Initially i was flattered but over time, i started to think, am i sending the wrong message? 

When guys complimented on my physical attributes, i start to wonder is that all they see in me? 

I'm really curious as what is it in me that made these guys said those things.  I consulted my very dear friend whom i've known for 10 years and asked his opinion. 

"It's different for every guy. To some extent, maybe it's your physical appearance. It's probably your body language, the way you talk or smile, your attitude. Its not your fault or their fault they are turn on. Sometimes its something they cannot control. Embrace and accept that you are sexy." 

There are some who thought being sexy is WRONG. There is this one guy who said this to me 

"You are too sexy. You attract too much attention." 

when i said that i dressed appropriately he goes on saying 

"Yeah for you its appropriate, for me, it's too sexy. That's why my girlfriend is plain" 

This is how i usually dressed. Too sexy?

Dude, it's not my problem that you can't handle my sexiness or confidence. Go deal with your insecurity first. 

I can't stop complaining (?)/ talking (?) or wondering what did i ever do to him because all he does is arguing, finding fault, criticize me.

Gosh. What did i ever do to you?

Well anyway, while i can't control what people thought of me, their reaction or how turn on they are, one thing i can control is how i react to their remarks or advances. 

Those who doesn't really know me saw my physicality while those who really knew me saw how strong, smart, independent, kind and caring i am. 

And these are the people that actually mattered.